My husband left me. Well he actually just left me for a business trip but he left me alone with all three of our darling angels. Normally he would only have to go away for 3 to 5 days. Unfortunately with the cornavirus his company doesn't want to expose extra people so he is going to be gone for 11 days. 11 DAYS!!! That means 11 days of solo bedtimes, 11 days of solo homework, 11 days of asking "Where is Dada?!?!", 11 days alone with my children. It wouldn't be so bad but all three of my girls as Daddy's Girls. As soon they are done breastfeeding they all love their Daddy more than me which is a blessing and curse.
Most normal days I am alone with my girls. It is usually not that bad because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. At 5pm when my husband gets home it is a little bit like sending in the Calvary. A tunnel that is 11 days long has only a small speck of light at the end that I can barely see. Waiting 11 days for reinforcements is a bit like drowning. However I keep telling myself he will be back soon. My husband has been traveling for work on and off since our first little lady was a baby. When she was younger she would get so mad when her Daddy was gone. For 24 hours after he returned home she refused to acknowledge that he had returned. Eventually she would soften and she would be a Daddy's little girl all over again until the next time he had to go away.
It has been over a year since my husband has had to do any business traveling. Last year at this time he was actually stuck in New York City while the world felt like it was crumbling around us. Luckily he made it home safely just in time for us to start E-Learning and working from home. It was an obvious adjustment but it was much easier with a partner like my husband. He has literally been amazing. Hopping up in between meetings to teach our first grader. Trying to keep our preschooler focused on her zoom call instead of doing gymnastics. Putting our two year old down for a nap so I can get caught up on dishes and laundry. He has seriously been a saint during this entire pandemic and now he is leaving me all alone with 3 hungry wolves that will probably devour me.
My littlest can't remember a day that her daddy hasn't put her to bed. She was only 14 months the last time that he had a business trip. As long as she can remember her daddy has always been home. It took this toddler 2 days to really understand that Dada was not here. We returned home from dinner at my mom's house and she refused to leave the car because I needed to take her to see her Dada. We called him on Facetime and as soon as she was able to talk to him we were able to coax her into the house. After a really rough year with my girls these next 11 days are going to be the roughest yet. Luckily my parents only live 15 minutes down the road. Luckily my kids will be going to school. Luckily we have Facetime so my ladies will be able to see their Daddy every night. However, it is still going to be uncomfortable for all 5 of us. My husband would prefer to be home rather be than be 1100 miles away. Sometimes you have to do things that you don't want to do to bring home the bacon. In 11 days we will all be together again and hopefully back to normal. Until that time I am going to live in a no sleep chaotic life. Pray for me.
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